Monday, April 24, 2006

you're B-E-A-Utiful

i'm a born slacker !
crap been procrastinating everyday since i entered NJC.
when would i actually really start work?
i mean i'm the slackest person around in my class.

anyways, saturday rawked, although i didnt really get to play much soccer. it was more of a scam, i feel. was told street soccer, ended up playing field soccer with my street soccer boots on a muddy field. like totally dirtied my new pair of shoes. so this was just the sucky part of saturday, totally redundant and time-wasting.

so after that WEL, Ben and i went over to Macs for lunch and guess what? we met another retarded guy at the counter.
Me : Hey can i have 3 sets of Student's Meal please?
Retard : Sure
Me : Erm, can i get an upsize for one of the meals?
Retard : WHICH MEAL DO YOU WANT TO UPSIZE?

Man was this a killer moment for Ben and i, we were trying so damn hard to control our laughter that once we paid for our food and returned to the table, we bursted into so much laughter that WEL was momentarily stunned and asked curiously what had happened. When we related the event to him, he was almost choking while slurping his coke.
Question : Who would actually ask what meal to upsize if all 3 are the same?
Answer : Well, the answer's above.

Fell asleep once i reached home and showered, was dead exhausted. So time flew and so came the LIVERPOOL vs CHELSEA match. woohoo rocked when riise blasted the free kick into the back of the net, even better when LUIS GARCIA(alrite baby !) netted a beauty where Cudicini totally had no chance of saving at all. sure drogba did score a lousy goal (<==== BIASED but true.) for chelsea but liverpool is gonna win the FA Cup for sure ! YEE HAWWW.

Well, it's just all temporary.
one day spent and rocked,
the next still feeling down.
can't put it down.
TRYING SO HARD, SO BADLY.
maybe it's time to give some time away too.
maybe it's time to move on.
maybe it's not time yet.

Here's a song that totally suits my current feeling right now.
JAMES BLUNT - You're Beautiful

"My life is brilliant, my love is pure.
I saw an angel, of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that, 'cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful, you're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye, as we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was flying high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful, you're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

You're beautiful, you're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
*But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.*"

take me away. >.<

Saturday, April 22, 2006

better days

A-R-I-S-T-A-L. That's how you spell "Western Dance Rocks". Last night was the night, our night, and we truly rocked the stage. Who cares if there was minor screw ups here and there? what matters most was that we went out and gave our 110%, we enjoyed the music while dancing to the hip-hop beat. the ultimate satisfaction wasnt the crazy and loud cheers the audience gave us. it was the bond we forged before the performance. this bond which created the EDDYX.
Me and Mo

ME, Juan and Charlyn

Avril and ME(in make-up)
Put on make-up for the first time in 12 years , the last time i put it on was for some kindergarden performance too and damn did i share the same "enthusiasm" i had for make-up in the past and now. White face, red cheeks and thick, juicy red lip stick. WEL forced me to wash my face after the performance cause he was too afraid to walk with me and my make-up on my face as it might just totally make him feel very ... er.... let's say embarrassed.
ME and Dismas(who took up 60% of the photo)
Another thing to point out is Tights. Wait, that's like the worstest invention ever in the world since the creation of ballet. i mean, when you put on the tights, it feels like a piece of skin stuck onto your original skin. I mean you will feel literally naked wearing tights. Hell they shouldnt even call it tights, they should have called it SKIN. when you feel like changing your skin colour on some days, just put on the black tights and see what it feels like to have changed race. Your skin cant breathe, you feel itchy all over and all. Trust me, once you've tried on tights, you would never want to put them on ever again.

we spammed photos like crazy, taking the opportunity to snap the camera with each other whenever we had the chance. Avril, in particular, was so anxious to take photo with me coz i had my make-up on.

lastly, i would like to give BIG(and i mean HUMONGOUS) thank yous to those who came all the way down to support us.
PARTICULARLY :
Yun - made me feel guilty coz of all the sacrifices she made to help me. been there when i'm down. Infinity "Thanks" are never enough to pay back what she has done. You rock girl !
ME and Yun

Ryan - best guy to be really there for me in western dance. Supportive and encouraging, helped me so much too. My partner in crime in NJ. woohoo
Avril - VPG !! My dance partner for hip-hop. always cheering me up when i'm down. sings well too(woooooo...!)
Phoebe - N-I-C-E is another word for her. a little too wild though but she can be the person when in need.
Wenhao - Our dear Pikachu, he's a great friend to talk too and always seeking out to help us all.

never felt any better(that means i'm still feeling like crap). except for last night. still down and all. can't stop thinking about it. i'll try not to. shall end off with this song VPG sent me and i loved it the moment i heard it.
GOO GOO DOLLS - Better Days

"And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kind and clear
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
Cuz I don't need boxes wrapped in strings
And desire and love and empty things
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words and sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

And it's someplace simple where we could live
And something only you can give
And thats faith and trust and peace while we're alive
And the one poor child that saved this world
And there's 10 million more who probably could
If we all just stopped and said a prayer for them

So take these words and sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

I wish everyone was loved tonight
And somehow stop this endless fight
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days."

take me away. >.<

Monday, April 17, 2006

wishes

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AVRIL!
MY DANCE AND COWBOY/COWGIRL PARTNER!
YEE HAWW!

there's nothing much to talk about today.
not in the mood as well, still feeling down.
wishes to VPG on her 15th.
all the bestest.
i've got nothing left to say.
just take me away.

take me away >.<

Friday, April 14, 2006

all time low

i've hit an all time low since last november.
this time it's all the way down.
depression, and it stings where you don't want it to the most.
the worst part of it, is that there's no best part to it.
received coldness way before warmth, probably being hated for loving.
it hurts, but the pain won't go away.
funny how i feel myself more with you than anyone else I know.
couldnt really bring up the sides of my cheeks this whole day,
except when it was really needed when friends brought the moods up;
or strummed and sing my blues away by myself - but it was temparory.
or more of MOMENTARY.
i'm officially the dumbest person around.
so damned obvious, don't know why.
everyone could see it, even the blind.
bashing myself up inside, showing people a sour face at the outside.
i feel selfish, spoiling others' mood when i'm in a bad mood.
thanks for giving your concern but i'm feel even more sorry for pulling such a long face.
especially yun, sorry for all the bitterness i threw upon you, i promise you all i'll try to cheer up.
forcing a smile just would not work if the mind, the heart is frowning.
don't notice the depressing look on my face, it's just that..it's just contagious.
how i wish it was that easy to let it all go, but it's never ever that simple.
today's post is indeed short and sad.
just wanted to try to compress my depression into this post - to see if i could life my spirit for a while, for a bit.
apparently it didnt really worked.
i'm still down, down.

shall end off with this favourite song i've been singing for the past few days.
Lifehouse - Take Me Away

"This time, all I want is you
There is no one else, who can take your place.
This time, you burn me with your eyes
You see past all the lies,
you take it all away.
I've seen it all and it's never enough,
it keeps leaving me needing you.

Take me away, take me away,
I've got nothing left to say, just take me away...

I try, to make my way to you
but still I feel so lost
I don't know what else I can do
I've seen it all and it's never enough,
it keeps leaving me needing you.

Take me away, take me away,
I've got nothing left to say, just take me away...

Don't give up on me yet, don't forget just who I am
I know I'm not there yet,
but don't let me stay here alone...

This time, all I want is you
there is no one else,
who can take your place
I've seen enough, and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you

Take me away, take me away
I've got nothing left to say, just take me away."

TAKE ME AWAY* >.<

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

brain stew part 2

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oops, that's just me banging my head on the keyboard.
yippee, council is fun, with 5 hr sleep per day and other activities, what's there which is boring?
seriously, i think i fried my brain or something. have been going crazy recently.
Work Cube = DEATH.
Well at least i got past death today by not screwing up my physics test.

anyways i've just imposed a permanent BAN on studying on my bed. I swear my bed has some kinda tranquilizer or something. I tried studying my physics notes on my bed last night and guess what? I got Knocked Out within minutes. It's a strong drug which is addictive man. continuing from there, i woke up at around 2am, as if the drug wore out and i jumped out of bed feeling blur and confused. i decided that i should continue mugging, so i reached into my Snack Pack (which consists of 2 Sparkling Drinks, A BIG pack of Lays' and a 4-pack Austrian Red Bull) and grabbed myself a Red Bull.

I watched it on TV that red bull does miraculous things so i decided to buy that $2.10 per can drink to try out. I took a sip and felt more awake, and i thought this could really be some good stuff. Pretty soon i finished the drink and i had the mentality that i would last through the night mugging. I decided to lie on my bed again to study and for God's SAKE, it's either that the tranquilizer on my bed is way too strong or the Red Bull thing is pure bullshit, i got Knocked Out again. this time i jumped out of bed at 5am and i conceded defeat to the bed, i felt that it was way too dumb to challenge it's comfort and softness *reaches to my bed and pats it* so i decided to prepare to go to school with an unprepared mind and weary body.

went to school, reached at 6.45am, prepared for morning assembly as freshly baked council elects. wearing the red tie and name tag which totally automatically stops me from doing anything illegal in school. ALRITE then the physics test came(it was 5% for the year FYI, i didnt know why i made such a fuss out of it), and i left the LT feeling stupid. it was managaeble, yet i was telling every1 that i would sure fail as NJC has the tradition of failing people in tests and such.

had dance after that and AVRIL(V.P.G.) was like trying to make a mohawk hairstyle out of my hair. gosh she even told me to shave my sides away. hahaha i will if she does! tried messing with her hair too but it was just too tied up to do anything wicked and nice.

woohoo told you my brain was fried, this could be a reason why. I was showering and i pressed what i thought was shampoo onto my hand and started to scrub my hair. turned out the smell and feeling of shampooing my hair was different for a moment and i realised that i had just used my body soap as my shampoo. crap, by saying that i just crowned myself the Blur King. but then again i'm going mental so these are symptoms too.

Here's a little something for that person out there :

"I don't want another pretty face,
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste,
I want you and your beautiful soul.

I know that you are something special,
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed,
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me.

I don't want another pretty face,
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Your beautiful soul, yeah
You might need time to think it over
But im just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry c`mon lets try

I don't want another pretty face,
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Your beautiful soul, Yeah.*"

PEACE OUT. ^_^ "pops and rochets"

Monday, April 10, 2006

brain stew part 1

heys.
i think this will be a short post.
i have a freaking physics test coming up tml as well as tons of homework, and upcoming council election stuffs.
I THINK I MIGHT HAVE KILLED MYSELF.
i brought it upon myself and now i have to live with it.
chose council, and dance, and now i think my social life is going to go *poof*

OUCH i don't think i can post any further though i have quite alot to write.
see you guys in a few days and hope by then i won't be dead.
hehe alriteys.

PEACE OUT. ^_^ "pops and rochets"

Saturday, April 08, 2006

walk away

today was brought to me by the letter P.
there's one word which can sum up the crapness i've faced today - PISSED .
unproductive, tired and angry.

i've got no mood to post right now but i just gotta summarise the OFFICIAL worst day of 2006.
friday started off as a normal school day and ended in exhaustion. i attended my school's talentime and only dismas' dance performance was worth the 5 bucks i spent on the ticket. reached home at 10 plus near 11pm. ate dinner and went online for awhile(honestly speaking, my dinner officially started at 11.30pm) went to sleep at around 1am and woke up at 5am to go to my aunt's house(as it was nearer to tanah merah mrt.)

so i got a total of around 5 hrs of sleep(in the bus, taxi and on my bed) for the day before setting off to meet the EDDYX at 7.45am. we went on to the ITE near expo and prepared for our $400 an item performance. WE DID A SUPERB JOB INDEED but we were weary right after the performance. took photographs with the guest of honour, Mr. Balakrishnan and went on to tampines mall for lunch.

spent a bomb(yet again) on food, seafood platter at cafe cartel, shared by phoebe, alethea, qi tang, ryan and i. we were drunk amidst the laughter and joy that time flew. 2pm and we were still chatting. OH YES, i forgot to mention, ballet prac started at 2pm. ryan and i continued to take our own sweet time to return to school, but he had to go back to his hostel to retrieve his ballet shoes so i accompanied him. by the time we were at the NJC sidegate, it was already 4.10pm and we were definitely, definitely running late. thus we decided to climb over the fence in order to get to prac quickly. HOW IRONIC: usually people would climb over the fence to escape from school, but we were like the direct opposite of them. i felt dumb, as tons of cars raced passed us doing the obvious illegal thing.

FYI, ballet practice is from 2pm-5pm. we reached the gym at 4.20, mr. chong was fuming with rage and started to PMS us and everyone around. i planned to go to sim lim square to grab my UPS then to WEL's house to collect my comp b4 residing back to my home sweet home. GuesS WHAT? schedule totally messed up, ballet ended at 6pm, i rushed to SLS to grab the 60 bucks thing and went to WEL's house. WEL, as usual, fillled me with hospitality and stuffs, thus i finally reached home at around 11pm. WHOLE DAY LITERALLY WASTED!

couldnt MUG for physics test next week, havent touched PI, and definitely not homework. i'm going nuts whenever i recall what teachers would always tell us: Manage your time. Sure can finish all the homework while attending CCAs.
Question : How can you manage time if you don't any?
Answer : Exactly, no time, with dance-filled week, PMS-y instructor. I can't possible mug everything within one day. definitely not.

we're all human. crazy. MANAGE TIME. nice one teachers. we have 24 hrs a day. 16 of which we spend in so called 2nd home - SCHOOL. 8 hours left. you go home, have dinner, shower - another hour gone. imagine being dead beat after everything occurred in school. now you don't even have a time for "afternoon naps". sleeping would take up, let's say a normal student, 4-5 hours. you do the math, you would be left with roughly 3 hours left. what can you possibly do in 3 hrs? homework 2 hrs, let's estimate and thus we have one hr left to mug. YEA RIGHT, let's not throw in the time to use msn and stuffs.

the clock now ticks at 12.45am. i still have dance prac tml at 3-6pm. i guess another half a day gone. yup. homework and studies. don't talk to me about managing time if there's none. that's complete bullshit. i guess i'm damned pissed at this point right now. thus ends my sucky day.

PEACE OUT. >.< "pops and rochets"

Friday, April 07, 2006

after all this time

HEY PEOPLE!
gosh it's been like....crap i lost count...
erm if i'm not wrong, it's been 5 days since i last posted. sorry guys to keep you waiting.
well at least i've got time to gather inspiration and stuffs

seriously, i gotta give it up to this one guy. because no one else, NO ONE, has ever made me so pissed that i created a punt out of it. so it was yet another boring maths lecture in LT1. me and my guys rushed into the LT1, knowing that we're late, so we took the 2nd last row of seats while mr. bek holds his anger while he notices us stomping up to our seats.

so the lesson continued with summations, sequences and stuff. and you know how confusing these equations can get if you don't listen or pay attention during these important lessons. we got our notes out and started to do examples as mr. bek instructed. yup so we're doing, doing when a loud(well at least to me it was audible) voice interrupted my train of thoughts. just another typical yakker, i thought. so i just focussed again and got back to my work.

things detioriated when he started slurping from an empty bubble tea cup. he was directly behind me at that time and i could hear the loud and irritating *sllllluuuurrrpppp slurp slurp slllluuuurpppp* sounds ringing in my ear. BAE and i turned to look at each other at the same time, as if we thought of the same thing at the same time. "MAN this guy has to shut up or i'll have to help him."

so the slurping continued for a minute and it finally stopped, and i was fuming with rage although i didnt say it out loud. but this guy distracted me so much that i was lost in whatever mr. bek said next. and just as i was getting the equations and stuffs, GUESS WHAT? our superstar here starts to whistle to the tune, Always Look on the Bright Side of Life aloud; this time it wasnt just BAE and i, even Jingan turned and looked at us and gave us the "i'm-gonna-shove-my-notes-down-this-guy's-throat" look.

at this point, i leaned over to BAE and whispered aloud, "hey, can i get an order of SHUT-THE-HELL-UP please? it's for the person behind me." So BAE, being timid as always(nah BAE's just protective and we all know it!such a nice guy), replied back for me to keep quiet and told me not to say aloud if i didnt want to die. But this guy has crossed the line, he has gone too far, too wide and no one screeches my train of thoughts to a halt except for myself!

at this point for you guys reading this, i know it would really be painful to experience 3 super duper friggin irritating things done by the same guy. but the pain has not ended yet, no folks, it was just the tip of the iceberg! i mean, when you yourself go through such a horrifying experience, you would tell yourself to bring a sawed off shotgun on your next lecture or movie.
Question : You know how bad the sound of plastic bags being crushed around feels like in your head?
Answer : Man you wouldnt want to know. It hurts and it makes you squirm, literally, especially when you are trying to figure out math.

Yes guys, this MONSTER continued to torment me by playing with a plastic bag! PLAYING WITH A PLASTIC BAG! omg, i dont know what i did to this guy in my past life that he had to go through the lesson without even listening to the lecturer and irritate the hell outta me. *scratchy noises SCRATCH SCRATCH* echoed in my skull. THE PAIN, the terrible, terrible pain!fortunately(for that guy, if not he would have been murdered by jingan, bae and i if he did even more dumber things), the lesson ended quite quickly and this guy just walked away from the LT just the way he started the lesson - talking aloud playing with his plastic bag(i still have no idea why he just has to do that)

i dunno whether to blame or thank this guy here for giving me inspiration for my blog or gave a trip to hell and back. okay, you might think i might just be over sensitive and stuffs, but wait till you go through such crap, you would find yourself in a situation where you would contemplate whether to commit first degree murder, TRUST ME. jingan even quoted that that guy didnt know how to drink using a straw.

phew, thank god i shared this experience with you guys, if not you would be in a dilemma of what to do the next time someone does that to you. that's right, just stand up, put your finger to your lip and stare straight at his ugly face. if situation persists, consult your peers to whether to smack/shoot/kick/rip apart etc. this guy.

cool, vended all my rage on this guy here, i still have a performance tml. crap, we need to meet up at tena merah mrt station at 0745 hrs. and it's already 12.15am and counting! need to grab some sleep soon, tml's gonna be a hectic day and i have a physics test next week! tons of homework piling up, and i gotta start doing them or i will die during promos and common tests. see you guys soon. this post's a long one. haha thanks and bye!

PEACE OUT. ^_^

Sunday, April 02, 2006

cole's law

heys guys.
feeling funny today.
coz of injury. ouchies.
i fell on my left arm and now it feels kinda painful/weirdish. double ouchies.
and zhang yun thought i injured myself during ballet. BALLET. triple ouchies.

woah i'm a leftie. now my font has changed. i dunno whether it's for the better or for the worse. but it feels as if i'm learning how to write again. here's the story : after dance i went to play soccer with the guys at cck. into my third match, which was apparently the last match of the day, the score was still at 0-0. i received a well timed pass from soon kwang, then was blocked by WEL. i turned, rolling the ball at my feet when i felt myself suddenly slipping towards the ground.

the next thing i knew was an acute pain to my left elbow and finger and seeing a massive block falling over me, barely missing my head. so the guys gathered, subbed me out, and continued while i wondered whether i had fractured any bone or not. the match ended, with my team triumphing with victory. WEL came over, asked me whether i was alrite, then confessed guiltily that he had actually pulled me which caused me to slip and fall. WEL, my own cousin, that's four times the ouchies, hehe. he got too into the game and felt i was a threat to his poor defensive error, causing him to make a professional foul onto me.

ahh well, at least the pain's almost gone, and i get a unique font. wel just grinned and joked that things like these always happen etc. LOL. it already happened man.

today's liverpool match is not LIVE. omg. argh called ben and told him. so he couldnt come over to watch either. i'm somehow robbed of inspiration today. couldnt really think of anything or anyone stupid and didnt witness any either. could be because of my injury, or because liverpool match isnt being broadcasted for the very first time. but nah i'm just giving stupid excuses.

okays i think i'm done, damn, such a short post today. hope it would not happen as often in the near future. i promise. hehe thanks for your time!

PEACE OUT. ^_^