Saturday, September 30, 2006

YOU.

shhhh...

"Cause I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me;
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside Heaven's door and listen to you breathing,
Is where I want to be.

I'm finding my way back to sanity, again
Though I don't really know what
I am gonna do when I get there
Take a breath and hold on tight
Spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back in the arms of grace.

'Cause I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me;
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside your door and listen to you breathing,
Is where I want to be.

I don't want a thing from you,
Bet you're tired of me waiting
For the scraps to fall
Off your table to the ground
I just want to be here now.

And I am hanging on every word you say,
even if you don't want to speak tonight
It's alright, alright with me;
I want nothing more than to sit
outside Heaven's door and listen to you breathing,
is where I wanna be."

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

run.

Such a bad time to be blogging now.
but it's just the right moment to be saying this;
'cause I can't seem to get this off my head.

So much, I am looking forward to the times when we can just go out to, perhaps talk,
or just take long walks,
because I enjoy moments like that, with you.
And I cherish them.
Everything by Lifehouse says it all.

"Find me here,
Speak to me,
I want to feel you,
I need to hear you,
You are the light to my soul;
You are my purpose,
you're everything

You calm the storms, and you gave me rest,
you hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall,
you steal my heart, and you take my breath away
Would you take me in?
Take me deeper now.

And how can I stand here with you,
and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

'Cause you're all I want, you're all I need
You're everything,
Everything."

Thursday, September 21, 2006

rain on the brain.

It couldnt get any worse than this. Okay let me begin the tale of how i found out that i am officially very, very injury prone. first off, one month back while I was playing soccer, when I rushed back to my own defence in hopes of clearing the ball - which I succeeded, but suffered a hard kick to my calf which caused a prolong pain to the calf muscles up till now. I cant tip toe without feeling pain. Regards to Ben for providing this Online-Physio webbie.
Here is injry #1: http://www.sportsmed.buffalo.edu/info/calf.html

Did i say #1? uh huh it's not over yet, days after the first injury, while playing soccer with the guys during PE, my knee collided straight into Jingan's knee while we were struggling to get possession of a ball,it was like in a car crash such that he was the 18-wheeler and i was like the mini-scooter. I limped off immediately in agony to the high jump mat and just laid there like a dead man, the pain was excrutiating. I got kinda excited and without much rest I continued, (well the following isnt really an injury but it shows how injury prone i am) Tong Hern passed a ball to me and while i was trying to control it, the spin of the ball caused it to ricochet off my feet and straight into my sensitive area(YEA YOU KNOW WHAT IT IS!). the pain to that area was temparory but it hurts, while the knee injury still hurts till date.
Here's injury #2: http://www.sportsmed.buffalo.edu/info/prepat.html

wait wait, there's still one more added to the list. it took place yesterday. during lunch break, and i went to the basketball court to play soccer(AGAIN?). i took aim and gave a hard shot but the leg position was awkward, from the moment the ball left my feet, i limped straight to the fence and shouted out loud, as the pain was over-bearing. though the ball went in between the 2 posts(yes it was a goal), i thought i might've pulled my hip muscle and it is kinda serious.
Here's injury #3: http://www.sportsmed.buffalo.edu/info/hipflexor.html

Notice a pattern about these injuries? well of course you do. They are ALL soccer-related leg injuries. YEA AVRIL I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE THINKING IF YOU'RE READING. heh. i should switch to golf. maybe this is a sign that i should retire(okay maybe this word is too strong) from soccer. from the current circumstances, i just might though. i'm thinking that golf won't really kill or cause injuries, unless the ball or the club lands on any part of my body. Ouch.

Saturday, September 16, 2006

closing time.

i should be sleeping now. RAHRR.
but i've got this rush of inspiration all of the sudden so my butt is rooted to the seat again.
let's summarise today, it was mundane; same old, same old.
just that life is getting busier with the promos coming...

You know what? let's...let's not talk about my life right now. yea it's boring you wouldnt wanna hear it anyway, in this case read it. i've decided to break out of my shell, i'm feeling that my old self is back. (Ben and those who've read my 1st generation of posts will know what i mean) But nahh, it ain't going the overly-sarcastic and crazy(like really crazy) ideas anymore. wait, it would still be a tinnie-winnie dose of sarcasm but what the heck. haha those who read the posts this year would have Stan's-posts-are-emo-ish thoughts. well just to say today COULD be the day of days to kick start a brand new mood to my blog once again.

let's not waste time(though i already wasted 10 min typing those 2 paragraphs). this sudden rush of inspiration was due to a TV show i happened to stumble upon yesterday : Pimp My Ride. Yea, yea i know what some of you are thinking "oh this guy must've listened to mr. brown's podcasts etc. and elaborated on it etc. yakity yak." but my views are definitely my own.

Well for those who've watched the show before, or heard of it. It's like the EXTREME MAKEOVER for cars. It's about people sending in photos of how crappy and scrappy their vehicles(? am i even right to call those vehicles) are trying to get a black rapper to get their cars upgraded. I mean, like, most of the cars/vans/metal fitted with engines look like they're from the 1940s WW II era and they've just drove right through a mine field or something. You can see like the super rusty rims of the wheels(some cars don't even have rims), dented and scratched off paint marks of the body as if a 100kg cat used it as a yarnball etc. ; they look so bad, you would even think it's illegal to "drive" that on the road.

Every episode the vehicles look worst and worst. Some don't even have seats, the boot is filled with so much stuffs, they won't even know if you murdered someone and threw the corpse into the trunk. It's like, you might even suspect that these people would actually trash their cars on purpose to such a state where it could still be driven(they don't wreck the engine) yet still looks pathetic. Some cars don't even have doors for Heaven's sake.

So fast-forwarding, the rapper guy drives(he actually has the guts to) the "thing" back to a very unique and special tuning shop; and those mechanics, let's just call them guys, would always have the same reaction when the vehicle drives into the shop. The guys, somehow on cue, would display very surprised and depressed yet spastic looks on their faces, gasp and silently scream, "WHAT THE?" right in front of the cameras; as if those cars have no hope of even upgrading and tuning it. But the end product is always the same, but let's get there later.

anyways continuing from there, the guys would discuss what they would want to do with the piece of junk; i'm guessing that most of them would just want to turn it into scrap metal but they've got a show to do. the specific specialist will then tell the world they want to do this, want to add that, remove this, burn that etc. and they then get to work.

they would removed like 90% of what's left of the car when in the 1st place the car is left with 60% or less so you do the math. all you see left is the engine/batteries etc. the rest are like removed and gone. they make a new body for the car, throw in seats that look like they're from a private jet, add things you would never imagine they would put it in a vehicle. the COLOUR of the car is always so striking and weird; it's like i just take random cans of paint and pour it onto the car.

global tracking devices, ten 7-inch monitor around, under and in the car, gaming consoles, hot tubs(do they actually use them?), weather forecast machine, 50-inch plasma TV, leather/fur/exotic animals' hide passenger seats are just some of the few things they put into the car. this car, after all these upgrades are like much more expensive than everything that those car owners own. I SWEAR, if i get a hangover in the car and i wake up in it, i would think that the car itself IS my room.

finally(i don't know how long they take, maybe years?), when they complete that used-to-be-crap, and they reveal to the car owners, like W-O-A-H, it doesnt even look a car anymore, it looks more like a colourful kiddy MacDonald's playground.

when you watch it, i bet you would be like, "How i wish i own a car like that! it's bloody wicked cool!" Yes, that is if you want to increase the chances of people wanting to breaking into your car and steal it. honestly if i see one of those cars parked along the sidewalk while i walking, i would grab a crowbar and get those wicked high-tech stuffs. HAHA.

oh well, that summarises what was in my mind, and that's about it.
it's been such a long time since i wrote such a LoooooNNNNNGgggg post and with such a mood.
i hope you guys enjoyed this post cause if you didnt, you have left halfway while reading this post and wouldnt have gotten to this sentence in the first place.

PEACE.

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

running away.

i cannot believe it.
GP promos paper is next friday!
and i thought there would be one more week after this.
gee, my AQ kinda sucks and i don't know if i can even pass GP.
hmm, i've got roughly 3 more weeks to complete all my subjects.
if i don't i might just get retained or forced to drop one H2 subject which i certainly don't want either.
Conscience(screaming into my ears), "BUCK UP STAN, BUCK UP!"

At this point of time, I shouldnt even be thinking about it;
yet somehow I am.
I've got to make a decision, not my mind but the other counterpart.
I'm beginning to get the feeling that the answer is "YES";
but if that is so, fear is the only obstacle that stands in my way.
Whining's no use though, though there's not much to do to get through it.
Dilemma, yes, that's the right word.
Such a shame it's happening at such a time.

Ryan Star - Losing Your Memory

"Call all your friends,
And tell them you're never coming back.
'Cause this is the end,
Pretend that you want it
Don’t react.
The damage is done,
The police are coming too slow now.
I would have died,
I would have loved you all my life

You're losing your memory now;

Where have you gone,
The beach is so cold in winter here.
And where have I gone,
I wake in Montauk with you near.

Remember the day,
'Cause this is what dreams should always be.
I just want to stay,
I just want to keep this dream in me.

You're losing your memory now

Wake up, it’s time little girl, wake up.
All the best of what we’ve done is yet to come.
Wake up, it’s time little girl, wake up.
Just remember who I am in the morning.

You're losing your memory now;
you're losing your memory;
you're losing your memory now."

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

Midnight in Philadelphia

woah, MSN is screwed up.
one moment my contact list has only like 1 person online, next moment i can't even sign in.
GRRR..Microsoft's technical people if you're out there, you suck.
quick fix the problem Mr. Oh-So-Pro Billy Gates.
there're people here who need to use messenger and apparently, you're not doing a good job here!

Overthinking, I realised, can fill hopes with doubts.
That definitely ain't a good thing.
I need a clear sign to be sure that this is real, show me the way Starman.
I can't guarantee if this is it, that I won't fall again.
It's ALL in my hands and I know it.

U2 - City of Blinding Lights

"The more you see the less you know
The less you find out as you go
I knew much more then than I do now

Neon heart day-glow eyes
A city lit by fireflies
They're advertising in the skies
For people like us

And I miss you when you're not around
I'm getting ready to leave the ground
Oh you look so beautiful tonight
In the city of blinding lights

Don't look before you laugh
Look ugly in a photograph
Flash bulbs purple irises

The camera can't see
I've seen you walk unafraid
I've seen you in the clothes you made

Can you see the beauty inside of me?
What happened to the beauty I had inside of me?

And I miss you when you're not around
I'm getting ready to leave the ground
Oh you look so beautiful tonight
In the city of blinding lights

Time...time...time...time...time
Won't leave me as I am
But time won't take the boy out of this man

Oh you look so beautiful tonight,
Oh you look so beautiful tonight;
Oh you look so beautiful tonight
In the city of blinding lights

The more you know the less you feel
Some pray for others steal
Blessings are not just for the ones who kneel luckily."

Saturday, September 09, 2006

les yeux ouverts

avril: "hey you didnt update your blog for many days le.."
heh, that's why i'm gonna update tonite.
time is just flying by real quickly; so much stuffs have taken place throughout this period of time.
promos are nearing and at the blink of an eye, wham, it's the year 2007 already.
wow.
holidays are not called holidays anymore, once you enter secondary school.
back in secondary school, once march, june, september and november/december holidays arrive, there is no resting cause there would be tonnes of homework, CCA practices to attend etc. etc. never ending activities right at your doorstep.
for JC it's no different, perhaps even much worst because time will really fly, plus there would be other stuffs apart from school stuffs that would take place.
ahh well, life's like that. scream and whine all you want and though it can help relieve some stress, it would be temparory.

"soccer is where 20 semi-gay, semi-hairy guys chasing after a ball with 2 other guys trying to catch it." wow, the first ever definition of soccer i've heard and known of in my 17 years on earth. haha it's kinda hilarious though; 'cause YOU don't say you don't like soccer but instead give it a great definition. =)

well i love soccer too much to care, and I MIGHT take up golf. heh.

shall end today's post with one of my favourite songs now by Snow Patrol!

Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars

"We'll do it all
Everything on our own

We don't need
Anything or anyone

If I lay here;
If I just lay here,
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say how I feel

Those three words are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here;
If I just lay here,
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here;
If I just lay here,
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here;
If I just lay here,
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?"