Sunday, March 25, 2007

mixtape.

reply tags:
twin: joo pig. haha. 8 slices = 1 pizza you know. stupid sickness really make me lose my bloody appetite.
wenhao: 5 slices damn little. unless you put a whole unagi pizza in front of me, then maybe i'll consider. my throat still feeling fuzzy-wuzzy, argh.
avril: heyy. thanks! =)
rachel: AUNTIE(cause i promised not to call you AHMA.), my nose still flowing non-stop, but better, thanks! and yes the song + vid rocks!
ben: hey man. nah ain't the song writing type. that paragraph means alot to me ok. glad you loved it though. =)

weekend just passed just like that.
a little too fast, dont you think?
got a teeney-weeney part of some work done, at least.

my mind just can't take it, especially when i'm asked "what to do?"
i used to give advices, recently i just lost it.
just somehow repeating my points over and over,
and not making sense,
hence not being of any help to anyone at all.
i really don't know how to explain this,
i'm frustrated; really darn frustrated with myself.
i...don't...know...how...else...to...think...or...feel...anymore...

i do think that this song is tragically sweet.
just randomly listening to my old CDs and happened to really listen to the lyrics of the song.

You and me, we sit and talk of friendship then I ask,
If you can see, if we could be together forever.
I see the light die in your eyes
'cause you're scared you'll hurt
So you don't wanna try.

Well take a chance and come home with me,
you could stay for eternity.
If you try then at least you'll see
Then you'll never regret the things we never did.

You turn to me, I see your eyes
And somehow they cease to shine, you smile at me yet I can see.
You don't think we can make it
You see the light die in my eyes.
'Cause I'm scared to lose you,
I wish you would try.

Saturday, March 24, 2007

the road less travelled.

i'm not a fond fan of walking long routes, especially when it's at night and the road's all desolated;
but still, how i loved this evening's long walk from the bus-stop back to my home.
the cool breeze grazed my hair, while the light was almost perfect, not too dark nor too bright.
mosquitoes and insects didn't bother me either, which was to my favour.
i couldn't resist myself from stopping in my tracks and just breathe in the cool air and enjoy the lush green trees surrounding me.
the sun set beneath the trees not long before i reached the pavement.
of course i managed to snap a couple of pictures of this amazing scenery.
didn't really bother if anyone was behind me looking at a weirdo suddenly halting and taking pictures discreetly, cause it was just wonderful.

damn, i haven't felt this sick since ages.
my throat's killing me, my nose's irritating the hell out of me.
i'm often lethargic, and have no mood to do anything productive.
4 days already argh.
thanks people for your concern, but the bug's really being an ass right now.

went mr. ho's house today for post-danceworks "celebration"(note the quote-unquote) with the crew and some juniors.
stupid sickness spoilt my appetite for everything, only ate 5 slices of pizza.
then we went on to play very lame games like the STONING GAME, 3-PEOPLE DILEMMA, NO-LINK NAME GAME & I NEVER etc.
had a great time laughing and making the whole living room bursting into laughter themselves.
even Ale had a fair share of unglamness; (THAT you ask her yourself)
wooo i'm still laughing twin, HEH.
randomly roamed around IKEA afterward for around 1 hour or so before heading home.
getting exhausted again;
argh, alright.
cya world.

Some unforgettable nights we spent in this light, saying nothing but just gazing into the stars. All these times I silently wished time would just stop and the night would last a long, long time; I silently wished you wished so too. Too bad time seemed to ruin everything. I ain't really got nothing else to say, so just take me away.

Friday, March 23, 2007

all at once.

okok reply tags first.
erika: hey! yes very, very grassy. but i'm lazy to cut it. haha.
tw: HEY yea it does man. yeap thanks!
huiting: haha thanks chuating! still feeling very sick though. yeap talk to you soon too =)
mich: heyyy NO i'm not sexy at all haha. AND you did not do badly for audits! aiyohh. haha. you can always continue dancing no matter what! don't worry =)

Status: VERY SICK.
argh 3 days already and i'm feeling as crappy as ever.
today woke up with such a bad throat that everytime i try to drink something it would hurt like hell;
ended up deciding not to go to school cause of my condition.
felt tired the whole day,
didn't do anything productive at all. argh.

realised my mind is so prone to overthinking when i'm sick.
but yes i've already moved on.
trying my best not to listen to Secondhand Serenade now.
stick to "All At Once" by The Fray. (repeat this x1000000 times)

argh no mood, no inspiration to blog.
i'm off.
goodnight world.

But now it's over, it's over,
why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over,
it can't be over.
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over.

Thursday, March 22, 2007

fall away.

*sniff*
*blows nose*

No i'm not feeling emo and crying,
i'm just feeling unwell, still.
argh, the feeling sucks.
my throat feels like sandpaper, my nose feels like a tap with plumbing problems;
which causes me to feel damn tired and absolutely no mood to do anything.
taken Lemsip, some crazily bitter Chinese medicine, went to the doctor today and it's still not improving.
just don't want bad thoughts to flow into my mind when it's at its most vulnerable state; it would NOT be good.
just keep myself distracted, yup, that will do.

for all those who think watching Discovery Channel is all nerdy and geeky,
you're all wrong, it's one of the best channels to watch if you have nothing to do,
with all the animals and ghost stories and err, anything that will catch your attention.
anyways if you do have that channel,
go catch this show: I Shouldn't Be Alive.
It's one of the best shows to be aired, it's like 10 action movies packed into one hour of intense/intriguing/exciting almost real-life documentary;
which will keep you rooted to your seat, even if you want to grab a drink desperately,
you would wait till commercials play before rushing off to get one.
well if you don't have that channel,
TOO BAD. (muahahaha, oops sorry can't really think straight with this flu and sore throat.)

realised that being sick sucks,
i will miss quite alot of school, not be able to sing properly, dance properly, eat ALL the food i love etc.
will just stick to the meds and see how it goes for the next couple of days.
i'm off.
bonne nuit.

Looking for the right one you line up the world to find
Where no questions cross your mind;
But she won't keep on waiting for you without a doubt,
Much longer for you to sort it out.

And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes we'd never know what's wrong without the pain,
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

it's over.

MY NOSE.
ARGH, it just kept flowing today, to a point where i felt like just cutting it off.
had to beg/borrow/steal/rob everyone's tissue cause i didn't bring mine,
but i had no choice, i felt so crappy today.
the bloody nose just has some plumbing problems.
excuse me. *blows nose*
yea, i think i can set the record for the most number of nose-blowing soon, been blowing my nose every 5 minutes today.
damn irritated by it.

it's just magical when songs speak to you, right?
let's say you randomly just listen to a song someone just sent you,
or something you just downloaded,
for the next moment you would be stuck listening to the song for the rest of the day cause the artiste just seems to hit the spot,
exactly how you feel, what you think,
together with the tune, it's just weirdly wonderful.
*blows nose*. sorry, really anti-climax but the bloody nose is killing me.
well i think i might have killed off many trees today, with the rate of me blowing my nose,
it's not my fault.
argh, just wished it would get better.
speaking of songs speaking to you, here is one which did to me today.

Not that you're the one
Not to say I'm right
Not to say today
And not to say a thing tonight

But suffice it to say
We're leaving things unsaid
We sing ourselves to sleep
Watching the day lie down instead
And we are leaving some things unsaid
And we are breathing deeper instead

We're both pretty sure
Neither one can tell
We seem difficult
What we got is hard as hell
A hundred thousand words could not quite explain
So I walk you to your car
And we can talk it out in the rain

And we are leaving some things unsaid
And we are breathing deeper instead
And we are leaving some things unsaid
I can sing myself to sleep no more

Not that you're the one
Not to say I'm right
Not to say today
And not to say a thing tonight

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

cut it loose.

Waffles taste great.
Waffles eaten on Tuesday with Wenhao, Ale & Eesha on a cosy sofa in Gelare which are half-priced just talking about everything taste a million times better.

i just came to realised that eating is good;
it's not a scientific thing, it's a personal thing.
i could just stuff my face(okay not that bad) with wonderful treats without feeling guilty or thinking about anything bad.
Today's lunch consisted of unagi + Chippy's Triple C Chicken + Waffles + Oyster Meesua(HEAVENLY) + Shih Lin Chicken + MORE Chippy's Triple C Chicken.
it was all worth it. =D
okay i'm not mad all of the sudden, i'm just hungry and distracting myself that's all.
i won't get fat. heh.

hmm watched Casino Royale, with all the THICK Britishy accent done by Daniel Craig and the not-so-hot Bond girl,
i was trying so darn hard trying to comprehend what in hell they were trying to say.
but overall the movie was great, 'cause of the action scenes and all that gets me so excited HAHA.
i need soccer soon, getting running nose because of soccer fever(nah i'm just crapping.)

haha ben, thanks for welcoming me back to the club.
hard, but just had to.
appreciate it.
wahaha.
alritey shall be concluding this post with this song from me to me.
bonne nuit.

Staring right back in the face
A memory can't be erased
I know, because I tried
Start to feel the emptiness
and everything I'm gonna miss
I know, that I can't hide
All this time is passing by
I think it's time to just move on.

Monday, March 19, 2007

yesterdays.

damn it!
i knew this was coming,
i could just predict how it would turn out.
just kinda disappointed with myself 'cause i didn't do anything about it to improve it.
I FAILED PHYSICS AGAIN.
then Mr. Ong said, "WAH, get S grade for common test not bad already."
Yes that is if the paper is set based on a University level, haha, he was referring to my standard.
gawwwd i need to buck up soon; still slacking and doing stuffs which are non-academic related.

i don't know what's gotten into me recently,
been eating so much.
just on saturday i nearly bought from every food store from bugis junction.
today, my class was dumbfounded when they saw me going for seconds from the Western Food store after eating from the Yong Tau Foo store.
they looked at me as if i was a freak.
hey hey i'm just very, very famished okay.

hmm if you don't know the top 10 signs on when you know your hair is growing faster than you think,
don't hestitate any further!
go read my previous post. (ok i'm actually quite proud of it.)
night!

it could have been easier than this
if you threw it all away,
what would you miss?
it could have been too much of a chance to take
the silence in your head would have to break,
your grip is slipping faster;
looks like you'll have to face yourself after all.

Sunday, March 18, 2007

easier than love.

HERE are the many signs that you get when you feel that your hair is getting longer:
1) You spend an excessive amount of time trying to style your hair before going out.
2) Shampooing it took much longer than a week ago, or even just yesterday.
3) The fringe regularly causes itches and irritation to the forehead, which occasionally results in a pimple outbreak.
4) You have this natural sudden impulse to dodge the discipline mistress/council teacher when in school.
5) When it rains, you feel that you don't get as wet as you usually do.
6) After vigorous exercises, you feel that your forehead is much sweatier than before, and that your hair tends to droop down.
7) Hard clay + Hair Spray don't usually last more than 6 hours; 3 hours if there are sports/dance.
8) Friends coming up to you and exclaiming with a squeal, "YOUR HAIR LOOKS MORE LIKE GRASS!"
9) You start comparing the length of sideburns with the person next to you, and the person next to him.
10) Last but definitely not least, you tend to ask random people this burning question, "Do you think my hair is long?"

Took part in one of the slackest Amazing Races this morning.
haha, NO it was not boring, it's just that it took the 'race' out of Amazing Race.
the games were kinda fun too, though we did only 3 out of 5 stations.

hmm ignorance is bliss?
that's at least what i had in mind.
not thinking about it makes my mind more at ease.
i don't feel pressurized to do anything about it.

haha randomly bought a pair of brown sunglasses for twin cause she's been dying to have one so that she can 'pose' around the next time she goes town or the beach.

ohh Lifehouse, you've saved my sanity once more.
thank you.
please come to Singapore soon.

I'm a stitch away from making it, but a scar away from falling apart.

Friday, March 16, 2007

stay close..don't go..

today wasn't a bad day,
then again, i wouldn't say it was a good day either.
went to school for dance,
then proceeded to play 3 whole hours of leg-aching, arm-cramping badminton which totally rocked.
though after that i could feel my arm shaking while i was holding something.
rushed to NUS after that to watch the IP dance teacher Dan's performance.
and the weirdest thing was that i got lost trying to find my way to a certain LT13 among the humongous place, cause i thought my sense of direction was kinda okay.
then i realised that there was no enough tickets, thus i had to sneak in, and i was so darn lucky to be at the right place at the right time where the ushers were not at the doors.
apart from having one of the most awkward times of my life, it still went well.
went to coffeebean at holland V, though i spent most of the time listening then talking.
and yes i'm quite pissed with myself for not taking dinner,
so now my stomach is empty and i'm forced to take anything available in my kitchen.
i'll call it bupper. (the meal between supper and breakfast)
apart from that i'm just telling myself not to think and continue eating.
will stop here coz my fingers are lazy already.
cya.

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

to ben.

Ben,
you'll get through whatever hell throws at you dude.
just remember you've got tonnes of people behind you.
don't be brought down by the past but instead look ahead to the future;
it's gonna be bright.
when in need of help, there's Fall Out Boy and 24.
go ahead and give hell the sucker punch.
we'll be with you at the end of tunnel,
there'll be no dead end.

Twenty four oceans
Twenty four skies
Twenty four failures
Twenty four tries
Twenty four finds me
In twenty-fourth place
Twenty four drop outs
At the end of the day

Life is not what I thought it was
Twenty four hours ago
Still I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You
And I'm not who I thought I was twenty four hours ago
Still I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You.

Monday, March 12, 2007

broken.

i find it hard not to think,
but it's not easy thinking about it either.
after all our hearts are not made of diamonds.
"and i'll wait, still" are the thoughts always floating.
but my mind is sinking, slowly.
it's absurd for me to just put this away aside.
i don't need an answer now, just reassurance.
maybe i'm just paranoid, falling short-sighted on what else is going on.
i can't stay being myself at how this is going.
i'm not okay today, at least not now.
maybe i'll be okay by tomorrow, but it just creeps up on me.
i could be insensitive, but that's how i am feeling.
sorry.

wise men say, it looks like rain today
it crackled on the speakers and trickled down the sleepy subway train
heavy eyes could hardly hold us,
aching legs that often told us
it's all worth saying
We all fall in love sometimes
The full moon's bright and starlight filled the evening
We wrote it and I played it
Something happend it's so strange this feeling
Naive notions that were childish
Simple tunes I tried to hide it when it comes
We all fall in love sometimes
Didn't we, didn't we, shouldn't we, couldn't we?
I'm not sure but sometimes we're so blind
struggling through the day,
when even your best friends say
Don't you find we all fall in love sometimes?

Saturday, March 10, 2007

honey and the moon.

guess after a few days of listening to Fall Out Boy,
it's back to my emo playlist again.
But seriously though Fall Out Boy has this magic in their songs that just wipes out my entire mind of thoughts (of stuffs that i'm constantly contemplating.)
just under this short period of time i could just put aside all these and i won't say enjoy, but put my mind at ease.
but as we all know it's just temporary; we can never avoid problems.

and i'm rightfully admitting that i'm afraid to solve the problems,
cause it seems so fragile at this point, yet i'm already taking steps back not thinking about it.
just like irritating pop-ups on random websites, these thoughts will generate more problems too.
i'm just pure exhausted physically now,
and with these other stuffs piling up i'm also setting priorities.
it's not that i don't wanna solve the problems, it's just that sometimes i wonder are there really problems?
yes we're all busy, so am i but i guess i'm just the crazy thinker guy who just always want to get things done with efficiently with minimal damage.
sounds impossible?
and so far it's just the 3 same words: i don't know.

Monday, March 05, 2007

infinity definitely on high.

Yes a quick and harmless post for everyone.
If you havent gotten Fall Out Boy's new album, INFINITY ON HIGH, get your ass moving and get it quick, cause ALL of their songs rock.
They really do, and i never lie when it comes to music.
and I'm sure that most of you have at the very least, heard their new song, It's Not a Scene, It's an Arms Race;
also Fall Out Boy's really guilty of having misheard lyrics everywhere, and it's really hilarious if you mishear lyrics for something else.
This is the misheard lyrics for It's Not a Scene, It's an Arms Race, i bet you will laugh your asses off the chair. (Yes it will make no sense at some verses but it will tickle your freaking funny bone.)

"I am an arms dealer,
Fitty, you with the weapons in the formal word.
and, don't really care which eye will,
as long as the room keeps spinning,
that's just a fitness hobby.

This ain't a city, it's a golf, dare ass face
This ain't a sea, it's a gold, care, OurSpace
This ain't a city it's a golf cart ass face
I'm not a shovel,
Don Juan, I dye grass...

I'm a little man, and i'm also evil, also into cats, also into cats
I'm a little man, and i'm also evil, also into cats, also into cats yea...

I move the gospel of didn't know? (Look the dude is sinking)
All the new bombshells and all that is,
So bring the dumb ass out the gutter
We're painting your thrash, ho,
while you sneak, crashing out life, hips and cars,
no more b-b-b-black parties...

This ain't a city it's a Gotham ass face,
This ain't a sea, it's a gold dare arse face,
This ain't a city, it's a gold dare arse face.
Fenway is born, believe, catch a mother.

I'm a little man and i'm also evil and also into cats, also into cats
I'm a little man, and i'm also evil and also into cats, also into cats yeahh..

All the foils on the dance floor can blow
and all the girls with swift, cream can move fast enough - sing, until your lungs skidaddle.
This ain't a city it's a golf cart ass face.
This ain't a sea, it's a gold dare ass face.
This ain't a city it's a Gotham, OurSpace...
This ain't a sea, it's a gold dare ass-face.

I'm a little man, and i'm also evil, also into cats, also into cats...
I'm a little man, and i'm also evil, also into cats, also into caaaaaaaaaats!"

Thursday, March 01, 2007

mystical.

Mystic River.

Not only was the novel great, the movie actually portrayed everything I had about the book in mind. Sean Penn, Tim Robbins and Kevin Bacon were wonderful actors. This movie just grabs the attention of the viewers. wooo. Go read the book or watch the movie if you have the time. Definitely worth it.

well first of all, CNY had been great. All the steamboat, abalone, scallops, late night Mahjong and every other thing which happened then were wonderful. but somehow i feel that as we grow older, CNY just gets more boring. i just miss those great times where my sis and i had fun playing with my cousins. now that we're older we can just sit down and talk and laugh about the past.

apart from that, it's back to school and work and CTs, just finished GP paper today, yet i'm already slacking though there's not much time left before the next paper on monday. argh sucks just no motivation to do anything productive. i need to start soon.

haha alright.
updated.
cya people.
peace.