Monday, July 16, 2007

i want you to know.

alritey, taking a break to update a little.
if not this blog will be dead in no time.

THURSDAY was a wonderful day,
a hugeeeee load was lifted,
get lost stormy seas and make way for the calm waters!
okay though there are much more things ahead,
they'll be great, i reckon.
dont mind the last post, i think i got possessed by the 'overthinking ghost' or something.

ahhhh.
lack of inspiration to post.
maybe my brain juice's been sucked dry by the tortorous chem and physics.
i've never been this diligent.
wow.

will you stay awake for me?
i don't wanna miss anything,
i don't wanna miss anything.
i will share the air i breathe;
i'll give you my heart on a string,
i just don't wanna miss anything.

i know i would ;D

Thursday, July 12, 2007

disarray

i had better update now lest the blog becomes really dead and no one visits this forever.
shall make this a short one though.

why must it always be this way?
whenever i finally feel like i'm getting hope back, some things would just happen and take my optimism away.
i just feel confused; i feel like i've lost track of everything, like someone pressing on the restart button.
i feel terrible; so worried that it'd be replayed and i'd fall.
head spinning; then why must it go on? my mind's thrown into utter chaos again.
i just feel that some things cant be concealed for too long.
hope and i just arent meant to be friends, i'm beginning to lose hope all over again.
please, if none of this is true then stop it, i'm vulnerable, i'm only human.
don't say or do for the sake of it; mean it, if not do nothing at all.

i want to close my eyes and just pretend i didn't see anything;
then none of these negative thoughts would flow in.
but i can't, i just can't help but think now.
thinking what has been happening for the past few weeks,
is it just me? or is there really nothing at all to begin with?
then why do i feel that it's gonna repeat again.

mess.
someone tell me what's going on before i do something stupid again.
please.