Friday, April 14, 2006

all time low

i've hit an all time low since last november.
this time it's all the way down.
depression, and it stings where you don't want it to the most.
the worst part of it, is that there's no best part to it.
received coldness way before warmth, probably being hated for loving.
it hurts, but the pain won't go away.
funny how i feel myself more with you than anyone else I know.
couldnt really bring up the sides of my cheeks this whole day,
except when it was really needed when friends brought the moods up;
or strummed and sing my blues away by myself - but it was temparory.
or more of MOMENTARY.
i'm officially the dumbest person around.
so damned obvious, don't know why.
everyone could see it, even the blind.
bashing myself up inside, showing people a sour face at the outside.
i feel selfish, spoiling others' mood when i'm in a bad mood.
thanks for giving your concern but i'm feel even more sorry for pulling such a long face.
especially yun, sorry for all the bitterness i threw upon you, i promise you all i'll try to cheer up.
forcing a smile just would not work if the mind, the heart is frowning.
don't notice the depressing look on my face, it's just that..it's just contagious.
how i wish it was that easy to let it all go, but it's never ever that simple.
today's post is indeed short and sad.
just wanted to try to compress my depression into this post - to see if i could life my spirit for a while, for a bit.
apparently it didnt really worked.
i'm still down, down.

shall end off with this favourite song i've been singing for the past few days.
Lifehouse - Take Me Away

"This time, all I want is you
There is no one else, who can take your place.
This time, you burn me with your eyes
You see past all the lies,
you take it all away.
I've seen it all and it's never enough,
it keeps leaving me needing you.

Take me away, take me away,
I've got nothing left to say, just take me away...

I try, to make my way to you
but still I feel so lost
I don't know what else I can do
I've seen it all and it's never enough,
it keeps leaving me needing you.

Take me away, take me away,
I've got nothing left to say, just take me away...

Don't give up on me yet, don't forget just who I am
I know I'm not there yet,
but don't let me stay here alone...

This time, all I want is you
there is no one else,
who can take your place
I've seen enough, and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you

Take me away, take me away
I've got nothing left to say, just take me away."

TAKE ME AWAY* >.<