Monday, July 24, 2006

artificial smile.

is what i wore on today.
'if you love someone, you've got to learn to let them go.
if that special someone returns, it means they're the one meant for you;
but if they don't then they're not meant to be.'
desperation leads to self-crumble - that's what i learnt today.
sure i fell down and hard.
but there were always people there to pick me up when i fall.
Ben, Ale, Ryan, Wenhao, Jo, Yun, Bae, Jingan, Sen, Sasha and the list goes on.
i can't stop thanking you guys for your time spent on me.
"2 weeks" said Ryan, "if you can go through 2 weeks, you're done."
i assured him that i could make it through.

She's got a pretty smile,
it covers up the poison that she hides.
She walks around in circles in my head,
waiting for a chance to break me, a chance to take me down.

Only One by Lifehouse. The song of my life. The song of Ben's life as well.

I guess you're the only one
that nobody changes.

I can't stop thinking about this song, how it replays my life. how it replays lots of people's lives.

It's all confusingly amusing,
bitter and tainted; the picture you painted to me.

sorry about the last post, it's all impulsive. without those people mentioned above, i wouldnt be in a calm and sane state right now.

still can't get it out of my mind,
I've tried to find myself in approval;
I've already been there, already done that
but it got me nowhere, it brought me nothing.
I guess you're the only one that nobody changes;
I guess you're the only one who will never change faces.
I guess....

don't you worry guys. i think i'll be fine - i THINK. for the time being.