Wednesday, July 12, 2006
when all have fallen.
team madagascar is out of national sevens. ouch. and we failed to score a single goal throughout the group stages. i sucked. poor passes and control. no finishes. dance elections today. stayed till quite late and went home with Shaun. it's already been 5 days. a week's almost completed.
i can't breathe, i wish i could.
my heart won't beat, i wish it would.
i can't speak, i think i should.
barely a smile today.
for the first time, i felt "better" being alone than with crowds.
when i walk, my legs come to a halt.
when i stop, i stare blankly into space, silently screaming.
caught the eyes once. it opened up my memories and it cracked inside.
i want to talk, yet i don't want to distract you.
officially not myself anymore, i've lost it almost entirely.
i don't know what to do.
Counting Crows - A Murder of One
"Blue morning, Blue morning
Wrapped in strands of fist and bone.
Curiosity, Kitten, doesn't have to mean you're on your own.
You can look outside your window,
He doesn't have to know.
We can talk a while, baby.
We can take it nice and slow.
All my life is such a shame, shame, shame.
All my love is just a dream, dream, dream.
Well, are you happy where you're sleepin'?
Does he keep you safe and warm?
Does he tell you when you're sorry?
Does he tell you when you're wrong?
I've been watching you for hours.
It's been years since we were born.
We were perfect when we started...
I've been wondering where we've gone.
All my life is such a shame, shame, shame.
All my love is just a dream, dream, dream.
Well, I dreamt I saw you walking up a hillside in the snow
Casting shadows on the winter sky as you stood there counting crows.
One for sorrow,
Two for joy,
Three for girls and four for boys,
Five for silver,
Six for gold,
Seven for a secret never to be told.
There's a bird that nests inside you
Sleeping underneath your skin.
Yeah, when you open up your wings to speak
I wish you'd let me in.
All my life is such a shame, shame, shame.
All my love is just a dream, dream, dream.
Open up my eyes
I can see the flames, flames, flames of my wasted life.
I should be ashamed.
Yeah, I don't want to waste my life, baby.
I don't wanna waste my life, now darlin.
Change, change, change."