Friday, August 04, 2006

saved the last dance.

damn my blog seems so dead.
like no one comes and visit it.
except for the few people; thanks so much =)

can't stop listening to Somewhere Only We Know; it's such a sweet song.
i promise i'm gonna do a performance on it one day.
Basketball with s12 people today, very fun, though yea i sucked at it.
i don't know why but i feel like it's going to be a repeat of Sec 4 again.
it's not that i want to, but i'm so afraid to lose so many friends again.
i've slipped into depression then but i picked myself up.
i even lost some of my closest friends; the recurring memories still keep me awake at times.
i've met so many great people in NJC, but i think it's mainly because of me that causes the ruining of the friendships and stuffs.
i tend to talk too much, and sometimes words just slip out of mouth and before i know it it's too late and i'm being very insensitive towards people.
i've lost so much time already, so much given away; now i just want to cherish the moments i have with the people whom are dear to me.
please, if there's anything you guys think it sucks about me, just tell me.

i found myself about to slip back into the pit again.
i'm almost reaching the target, but it's feels as if a rope is trying to pull me back again.
i already promised them i will get through this;
so she said, "you can't just exorcise your feelings, you just have to deal with them."
i told her i was afraid. so damned afraid of getting hurt again.
she gave me 2 firm choices, though harsh and hard but so true, "If you want to keep the friendship, it's all or nothing; ALL being the pain and staying as friends, or just lose it all."
we both knew what choice i would make. typical me.

i saved the last dance.
for the one and only.
i promise and i swear
that it would be
the longest dance we would have.