Thursday, August 23, 2007

i think that i should just go shoot myself right now.
too many things piling up on me.
everything's taking its toll.
family, work...the list goes on...

i don't know if i can take it anymore.
slighted feeling everyday.
NOW again a something crops out which you totally don't want to tell and again i'm hidden from the dark.
this time i don't know what it is, how serious it is.
i'm falling apart from this point.

i'm breaking apart.
someone drown me.
people only HEAR me, when i say something they will just nod their head, say okay, then mention another thing when i'm trying to put my point across.
my so-called friends.
fine, dont take me seriously at least tell me you dont want to listen to my yanks, tell me i'm too noisy.
Ben's been there for me, although not physically but everytime i've got something to rant at least he'll listen.

it totally kills me.
i said i can wait and i would.
deep down inside you know i'm dying to know.
even avoiding me now, i really have no idea why.

argh what the hell.
it's no use ranting here anyway,
it's just like another of my 'friend',
at least this thing won't change the topic.
it'll just absorb my bullshit.
i dont need another person claiming to be a friend.
i'll just sit in silence from now on and shush.

shut up world if you don't have anything useful to say to me.